You are NOT your own.

These are some of the thoughts and lessons I have learned and try to apply in regards to my testimony in the post on Dealing with a crises of faith.  Woundedness   I have to clarify that although it is true that deep wounds can and often do cause emotional responses and broken ways of dealing with the trauma.  This in no way excuses me from tacking ownership and consequences of my actions or choices.  By exploring the fact that I have experienced loss or trauma I am able to understand the reasons for the behaviors that developed in my life as a result. Ultimately I am responsible for acting out in the way I did, even if it was a twisted coping mechanism, I have to recognize that its in direct opposition to Gods intended authority and purpose in my life. Confession Once I recognize that I have sinned towards God and other people in my thoughts and actions I can bring these to the Cross (of Jesus, where we exchanged his righteousness for my unrighteousness) and bring m...

Very recently I was engaged in an intense  spiritual battle, one of the hardest challenges  I have had to deal with since the process of walking into the light commenced, this journey started about 3 to 5 years ago.  I am going to be very vulnerable in this post, very honest so if you may get shocked, disappointed, offended an or rather not know these details I suggest you stop  reading now and move onto something else. During my first Journey Discipleship Course I realised that I lived a life of idolatry, one where I lived practically under the influence of my false belief that "a man is only satisfied, and or complete if he was sexually fulfilled" I had replaced God with a fleeting ejeculation or arousal to meet my selfish desires. It was like I was worshiping at the altar of my sexual desires.   How pathetic is that belief in reality;? but it was a stronghold that kept me in bondage to pornography, fantasy and masturbation.  My struggle has been ver...