You are NOT your own.

 So I can't sleep, despite taking a pile of flu medication, my mind is too active, so I decided to write another blog, perhaps it will bring on the much needed sleepy feeling. Ironically my previous post currently is the second most read of my blogs, and I am not trying to justify my lifestyle choice but I have noticed a common thread in the interactions I have had with gay men. So many people have expressed that they knew that they were different, and knew it from a young age. Being different in what way?  Well for me I enjoyed typical manly things, like sports and outdoors, but I wasn't big into the competitive side of it, I just wanted to enjoy myself, and so when I felt under pressure to perform, I withdrew and preferred to rather read etc. I may have been a more gentle soul than many men, also later in life I gravitated towards women as friends, I didn't have to be butch and compete in any way. I guess I knew I wasn't really very good at sports and it made me feel ...