The Road to Freedom. My personal Jouney or part whereof.

This has not been shared or published publicly, it was however shared with my close friends, team mates and eldership team, but I sence in God  to release it now

This is part of my personal story and testimony, and the current Journey I am on. It was a camp I attended as part of the Journey South Africa Intensive week.  

They are a discipleship program that I am a small part of in team with others. 

Then he lay down and slept under the broom tree. But as he was sleeping, an angel touched him and told him, “Get up and eat!” He looked around and there beside his head was some bread baked on hot stones and a jar of water! So he ate and drank and lay down again. Then the angel of the Lord came again and touched him and said, “Get up and eat some more, or the journey ahead will be too much for you.” So he got up and ate and drank, and the food gave him enough strength to travel forty days and forty nights to Mount Sinai, the mountain of God. There he came to a cave, where he spent the night. But the Lord said to him, “What are you doing here, Elijah?”

1 Kings 19:5‭-‬9 NLT 

This is the verse that the Lord spoke to me on the Conquest Camp with Sean Krige and fellow attendees. We were practicing some of the spiritual disciplines we were studying in the material provided and I felt prompted by the Lord to sit under a tree halfway up a hill. 

There he spoke to me about the upcoming Journey Intensive Week. It was at that stage about 3 weeks to go, and I felt God was preparing my heart for this encounter.

There he came to a cave, where he spent the night. But the Lord said to him, “What are you doing here, Elijah?”

1 Kings 19:9 NLT

I sensed that God would require me to answer the same question he had asked Elijah, but mine was in relation to the Journey Week.

On Saturday before Journey I responded to Gods question and recorded these answers: 20-10-2019

1) To seek your face/ word and truth

2) To find you, and to deepen my utter dependence on you

3) To request your aid against my enemies, that being my flesh and addictions

4) To lay down my sexuality and deny myself in order to tear down Idolatry in my life.

5) To deepen my healing and to find a way to help others heal thru sin and brokenness (porn, masturbation, lust, sexual fantasies etc)

6) To live free, to be myself, (to be known) to restore right standing with you and other people in community, relationships, and to learn to disciple others to do the same.

7) To know you, more and more, and the plans and purposes you have for me.

When I arrived at the camp, the next morning I  went for a early prayer walk and felt prompted by the Lord to take off my shoes, and walk barefoot before him the rest of the week.

He gave me these three scriptures in specific.

When the Lord saw Moses coming to take a closer look, God called to him from the middle of the bush, “Moses! Moses!” “Here I am!” Moses replied. “Do not come any closer,” the Lord warned. “Take off your sandals, for you are standing on holy ground. I am the God of your father —the God of Abraham, the God of Isaac, and the God of Jacob.” When Moses heard this, he covered his face because he was afraid to look at God. Then the Lord told him, “I have certainly seen the oppression of my people in Egypt. I have heard their cries of distress because of their harsh slave drivers. Yes, I am aware of their suffering. So I have come down to rescue them from the power of the Egyptians and lead them out of Egypt into their own fertile and spacious land. It is a land flowing with milk and honey—the land where the Canaanites, Hittites, Amorites, Perizzites, Hivites, and Jebusites now live.

Exodus 3:4‭-‬8 NLT

(Promises that God has seen the slave drivers in my life, had heard my cry and promise of deliverance to a fertile land, flowing with milk and honey)

“But forget all that— it is nothing compared to what I am going to do. For I am about to do something new. See, I have already begun! Do you not see it? I will make a pathway through the wilderness. I will create rivers in the dry wasteland. The wild animals in the fields will thank me, the jackals and owls, too, for giving them water in the desert. Yes, I will make rivers in the dry wasteland so my chosen people can be refreshed. I have made Israel for myself, and they will someday honor me before the whole world.

Isaiah 43:18‭-‬21 NLT

I publicly proclaim bold promises. I do not whisper obscurities in some dark corner. I would not have told the people of Israel to seek me if I could not be found. I, the Lord , speak only what is true and declare only what is right.

Isaiah 45:19 NLT

I held on to the promise in bold for the week, and continued to walk barefoot on Holy Ground, as God confirmed my identity as son, not in my sin or past. 

Which is His truth that if I confess and repent in faith, in community he brings his healing to bear. 

That its HIM in me, the hope of Glory. That I am created in his image (Zakar) and I recall what is important (the fact I am a Son, fully accepted and  loved before I do anything, and nothing change's my Identity in Him, even sin) and that I move with boldness and confidence (towards relationship, with God and other's) to make an impact when there is a need.

My identity is secure in him, not my wounded self or unhealthy coping mechanisms, as I approach the throne of grace in confession of my struggles, pains, despair, loneliness as well as hopes and dream in community and relationship with others he meets me there and restores and redeems my life in full.

I can honestly say God my Abba Father met each and every need I asked for when he asked why am I here, and then some....

I have heard his voice in truth, through the word of God and confession before the cross, and in prayer and listening and responding in repentance.

I have renounced idols and false belief's and values, and committed to healthy declarations of integrity and accountability, to live in Faith in community. 

I was released by Journey SA as an assistant small group leader. I was so blessed to hear that through my testimony at a men's event about my struggles and the need to seek help, light and accountability was the catalyst for a another man's decision to attend Journey.

 I clearly came to know Jesus better on long reflective prayer walks, reading and praise and worship, and revealed scripture and truth. 

I walk now as a prophetic witness to those who need to see and hear the power, love and grace of our Father. And too make it beyond expectations.

I was sponsored to go on the program, but had taken unpaid leave to attend (I was willing to pay the price so that its not regarded as cheap grace and to recognise that I give something of value), and yet Gods grace met me there, and was given a financial gift that will cover that cost. Praise God.

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